i want to apologize for the EPIC rant and depressed-ness of the last journal... this time i just wana share how happy that i am

OK so by the time i'm done with writing this-- it will be my birthday.


joy and rapture! <-- which i can't have

i really-- i mean /REALLY/ wanted to do something over the weekend with 2 of my friends but life caused and....well nothing happened but a massive dose of depressed, tears, and boredom.....so well i got to go to the mall today with one of the two friends and we----(i) ended up getting some stuff. Well since i kinda live at her house, the other friend and the two of us decided to get together some other time really REALLY soon. And that made life better....then i find out that her (the chick i basically live with) mother is going to take me out on Friday to get a /professional/ message done.

Well the same as every year i go shopping with my grandmother on my birthday and get allllllll kinds of things. And this year won't be any different. ((I plan on getting some DVD's and gift cards to stores so that i can get clothes there once i have ENTIRELY finished loosing weight...))and then we go out to whatever restaurant that i pick and we eat i spend a good 2 extra hours with her then go home....i have so much fun with my grandmother, she makes me so happy XD

i may or may not be getting a "special dinner" (homemade) from my god parents--but even if i don't i'll be satisfied

as always thanks for reading!

~Ty-Chan

if you could just hang with it all the way through i would love any kind of feed back





Okay...well me and a friend had this insane idea to possibly get a table at an upcoming con b/c we wanted money/ extra money to actually be able to purchase things at the con we go to (Katsucon). We started to get our asses into gear--and well come to find out the closer (and more convenient)one we WANTED to get a table at--is sold out Well we absolutely do not want to surrender and stop working on our "products" i mean there is always the slim chance that we could get a forfeit table -- but i highly doubt that we'll get quite that lucky...*pout*
i mean we do kinda plan on going to the con and checking for the forfeit tables just because if we didn't, Murphys-law says that there would be 5 freggin' tables available.
But i don't think that it will be any harm to go to one next year...AND THERE IS NO FUCKIN WAY WE ARE GOING TO OTAKON.....waaaaaaaay to expensive for any table.... so if we miss this year we'll just have more time to practice and stock up on items, and actually take a few brakes....


Now i could be really annoying and tell you exactly the date...but i won't so that you'll actually read the journal XD
it's a little under 15 days until my 16th B-day, and on one hand i'm really excited about it and all...then on the other -- i'm kinda dreading the entire thing really.
i REALLY want to have a party, but i don't really have anyone to invite and as much as i'd love to have the 3rd me and ONE guest party...i wouldn't like to spend my sweet 16th basically doing the same thing that i do everyday *pout*
i wouldn't complain if the one other person that i want to come -does--but i want everything to go well and the plan that i had isn't really working out as well as i thought it would....i don't have--i ONLY have one friend, and the others have either moved on flaked on me, i don't really have any common interests any more, OR i only really know them through the one friend...and all the other people i knew through the people that i no longer associate with...so i kinda fail

so i'm pretty sure my birthday is gonna be a fuck-up....


Well where to start...
um well back in October i was kicking around a ball and well-- i hurt my knee

i went to a doctor to see what was wrong b/c the pain wasn't easing any, it was getting unbearable....

well it turns out that now after a month and a bit of physical therapy, i need to get an MRI done because i more than likely have torn ligaments in my knee * OOH GOODIIEEE! *

and i may (depending on the result of said MRI) need surgery and/or more PT. They even said that it's even possible that i could never be able to walk EVER again...the damage in my knee would be to bad and unrepairable if something doesn't get done shortly.
My knee used to give out on me, when i was walking up or down stairs, walking anywhere, standing, i couldn't even spend 10-15 minutes in the shower without my knee being in horrible pain...

i just hope that i don't need surgery or epic therapy. one it's way to expensive and two i can't be off my feet for quite that long...(I'm in a bit of a weight loss process)


it kinda is a little -- bland really... i mean the occasional thing happens that makes life a bit exciting but really it's just the same every day....and currently i have one main epic problem with life and how it's going;

I FUCKING HATE THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE ABOVE THIS APARTMENT!

okay i kinda feel a bit better about the noisey fucks...

another thing-- preps, and the emo skaters, and the scene people---- now no offense to any people who are this----- just SOOOOOO many people are adapting to the fashion it's insane . and another thing is that most people that fallow the trend are really stupid-loud-annoying-lazy......and well when you walk into a restaurant and about 30 twerps are in the place acting like they are so special with they're boyfriend .... they are loud and "don't get" ANYTHING!




Sorry about that....

i guess i just need love and comfort from someone who doesn't give it to me every day....
Thanks for listening/ reading--if you actually did read all of it instead of skimming.... TT.TT

~Ty-Chan

before i start! there is a /PHENOMENAL/ video that i kinda got distracted by; it's of a belly dancer--no nothing inappropriate...but she's delightful to watch, and do enjoy!! XDD

[link]

((Put who you were tagged by))

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"from a time to come," i asked awkwardly. "i thought that i would know you in the days ahead."

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
a kitteh...

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
i have no idea....

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
1:10am...that's what time it was when i started...

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
1:25am
dammit!

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the fridge and an overall buzz of the apartment...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
...outside....yesterday afternoon....to take the garbage up to the dump

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
another DA profile

9. What are you wearing?
O.o stuff Y do YOU wanna know!?

10. Did you dream last night?
nothing i'm tellin' anyone about!

11. When did you last laugh?
a few hours ago when SOMEONE fucked up their typing "skillz"

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
a picture...and a retarded map of africa.....oh and some leftover streamers and balloons...XD

13. Seen anything weird lately?
oh most defiantly.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
it's better than most.

15. What is the last film you saw?
um it was either "Miss March" or "Gran Torino" i think it was "Miss March" tho...

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?


i dunno....

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
um......


18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make magic plausible, and stuff.....

19. Do you like to dance?
YESSSSSS!


20. George Bush:
is a DOOOSH!

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Taite or Raine

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Tristen or Bram


23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
it's possible....

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
God: "*sneeze*"
me: "Damn you."
God: "...*unimpressed face*...thank you?"
me: "* XD *"


25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal
if you wanna do it ---do it.... <--you MUST do it!!!!!!!!!!


~Ty-chan

it's really hot out and i'm and a friends place--where they don't and WON'T turn on the friggin AC until MAY 1st and i know that that's only a few day away...but it's like 80 in the friggin apartment building....and it was what...91 outside today....

this is ridiculous...i mean honestly the fact that the pool doesn't open until a month from now and the next two day are gonna be even hotter than today--even up to like 96 on Tuesday! and then the rest of the week is gonna be rainy and still hot as hell on fire!...at least in the upper 80's all week long!!!!!!

GGGGRRRRRRAAAAHHH!

AND! the people that live in the apartment above hers, don't seem to have a grasp on when bedtime is for small children--that run up and down the hall from 6 in the morning until around midnight--and they also don't seem to get what a complain from the office is telling them to stop or be evicted....they play insanely loud music ALL the time, they stomp and slam doors, and bang on tables to the beat of their fucking obnoxious music....they throw trash onto the patio. for instance i walked outlast night and their was a can of oven cleaner on the patio..... another little thing that they do that annoys me is that they go to the bathroom and i guess that someone NEVER puts the toilet lid down and they slam it down and it thunks and you can hear it if your out on the patio....the throw cigarette butts down, and they just ARRRRRGH!.....one time tey actually hit me with something that they threw off their balcony....
we've given in two complaints to the office....and they haven't listened to either of them....


right now i'm in underware (bottoms) and a bathing suit top.....and i'm sweating....

life is very frustrating as of right now....and i could honestly give the people upstairs a good chunk of my mind!

i think that i'm done now.....
thanks as always
~Ty-chan

so it's april fools and everyone seems to be exploding about what DA did last year...i don't really care....it was an annoying icon, and well it only lased for a day, and i mean you had to immediately know it was a prank! common! the fact that EVERYONE'S icon was the same didn't clue you in....i mean really?
this year they give only a few people little snowmen on their profiles....and I WANT A SNOWMAN!...those things are fuckin' cute! they are only on the subscribers pages tho...and i DO kinda wonder what they are going to do to the rest of DA....i mean i don't honestly think that they WON'T prank me and everyone else just b/c they alredy did something to all the subscribers?

i digress-- as for about me....a lot is AND isn't going on...i dyed hair black in places...i'm going to go see a BUTT LOAD of movies this friday...my mother just got out of surgery...i have to go to physical therapy...um lets see--...... i stopped going to my therapist for a while...but i need to get a higher dose on my meds ....um as of a while ago about two months now, my adorable cat died of kidney failure (i'll post a picture of him as a deviation later).....and as for the writer side of me--i've had SUCH a bad writers block for the last few months it's ridiculous! i can't write any short stories i can't branch away from the original story i was writing OH SO WELL! the only time that i can think to write is when i'm laying down and TRYING to fall asleep- well being an insomniac this isn't good i can't just get back up and be awake for the next five hours writing down every little idea that comes into mind! and of course by morning i lose the ideas entirely....sometimes i want to beat myself, and those are generally the times.

a bit of ranting but oh well.

If you don't already know:
my Facebook: Tyleranne Caldwell
my Myspace: [link]

just b/c i'm bored and i can...
thanks once again for listening!
~Ty-Chan